28/11/11
We got a new project today, '49'. Even reading the learning outcomes, I still find it half a waste of time and don't see much relevance of it and 'Fashion'. Though, I had and am willing to give it a chance. However, I've already got bored of it, and it was only briefed to us today!
This demotivates me and I don't enjoy it.
I'll try again tomorrow.
29/11/11
What another 'no progress day'. I did not do much work at all! I spent too long chatting rather than working. Sometimes I think I can't work in a room filled with people, it's far too easy for me to get distracted! But that is to say, I am still feeling bored of this project. I actually had more fun turning one of my paper 'pieces' into a Christmas tree and hanging it fro the roof - I'll eventually regret not trying to force myself to work.
I'm finding the whole studio doesn't like this project. I think I heard one of the staff describe it as a 'love/hate' project. I'm going to make myself a 'to-do' list and brainstorm for next studio day. Finger crossed I find enjoyment in this!
2 weeks, 5 days remaining! :-(
There is an element of enjoyment and pride needed in work to succeed!
01/12/11
Things are looking up! I've gave myself an element of a 'concept' for this project and now I'm really getting somewhere! I was super productive today! It's because I've found an interest in it now. I'm going to try and find an interest each day. I really work well when I enjoy it, so now I'll try find something I enjoy everyday to help me.
2/12/11
I've still got my 'theme' (if you'd call it that), but as the day went on I'm running out of ideas and 3D objects - just because they have to 'evolve'. I'm working at a steady pace which is good. I think though, I need to take a few breaks in the day, I didn't even stop for lunch but I think this is the reason why I'm running out of ideas. Note to self: Take more breaks!
5/12/11
It's snowing! It's SO hard to write, my hands are so cold! I'm in a brilliant mood - a good thing to keep me working - if I worked - if I wasn't distracted - STAY FOCUSED!
6/12/11
Okay, the novelty has worn off. Well, the snow was washed away too. I did work and I'm happy with my outcomes, however, I just don't have any interest. I cleared my wall of images to allow me to think clear for next day, it was just so frustrating! I felt like I'm in a factory just firing one out after another, with no time to think! I'm ready to start newer ones tomorrow and will do some thinking tonight; once I loose interest I stop working.
8/12/11
GSA was called off today due to the severe wind, and all my stuff is in the studio! I'm going to take today to do some more research.
9/12/11
Wow! Stressful! Even with all this research I have no ideas. I spend too long thinking it will work out than rather doing the job in hand. I stayed late too - so unproductive! I think I need a break. Or to put these away for a fresh start. Sometimes I think too much about what I'm doing.
10/12/11
It's a Saturday night and I'm working in the studio. I put everything away and started a blank 21x21cm sheet. The ideas are coming to me! I'm taking my time and doing things I like!
12/12/11
Tutorial's are today! It was fine. I found it so inspiring to see what other people have done. It's almost gave me a lot to think about and a lot of motivation, also new techniques.
It's nice to get feedback, especially from people who mean it! I'd rather someone well me my work looked like crap than lie and say it was 'OK'. I think I can successfully dismiss opinions myself judging by how they say it. It's nice to see what everyone else is doing and I get inspired - not copy of course - do it differently, or better. I've realised I could do more experimenting particularly with the printing facilities available.
CONCLUSION
From reading through my diary entries I think I can easily sum up some corrective action from my observations;
I think it's important for me not to become ignorant; I understand now why they 49 project was given to us, and I should not have dismissed it because it wasn't related to fashion. It it wasn't necessary, then these projects wouldn't be given to us.
I don't work well when I'm not interested, but, let's face it, there will always be a project somewhere along the line that I don't particularly like. I think if I want to score a good grade that I should try and get an interest in it perhaps by looking at it in a different way, like giving it a concept as above. And also don't over think, take it by its stride and one at a time. The best things aren't always complicated, this involves taking breaks.
I do however think that I am a hard worker, and have shown in this project that I'm not willing to just give up. I do fight for it when it doesn't work and use the corrective action subconsciously to make the project in hand work to my ability. I also believe that I have the talent to do well, I just need to pick up the courage to be a bit more adventurous and come out of my comfort zones at times, perhaps by not being so ignorant towards things that aren't fashion related.
In order to succeed in future projects I will take note of the 'corrective action' I've shown here, and try execute it much earlier if I feel the need. I'll also try not to over think, but I will keep my determination to do well.
